My word/phrase for 2019 was “recalibrate life.” And now that the year is nearing its end it seems appropriate to look back and re-evaluate. I feel very positive about the inner growth that took place this year. My “inner growth” has translated into life changes, true recalibration. Both heart transformation and mind reset. As I consider the past 12 months, I feel a contentment within, I feel as if I accomplished what I set out to do in many ways.
My areas of focus were to:
☆ slow down
☆ choose rest
☆ learn Sabbath rest
☆ live in simplicity
I see varying amounts of progress in each area. Slowing down has probably been the hardest, as I seem to have this inner motor revving. Somewhere along the way I learned to live fast, always in a hurry. But throughout the year choosing mindfulness, recognizing when I am rushing, being really aware of this has helped me to begin to do life differently. Using breath prayers and taking to heart the Scriptures I write in the morning have both slowed my racing heart and set my mind at ease, helping me slow my pace. Stopping to be present in the moment is another practice that has made a difference. Taking time to breathe deeply and enjoy the person I am with, the food I am eating, the coffee I am sipping, or the activity I am doing, these have become part of my daily life.
When you constantly live in rush mode you don’t even realize it, I needed these stepping stones to help me. I read about many different practices and chose to use some of them at various times. Many have helped me to slow my anxious, hurried pace. I will take them with me into the new year. They have become a part of my life, a part of me. Right now, as I work my way through Alan Fadling’s book The Unhurried Life, I see areas of change still necessary, but there is no denying the growth that has taken place. (I will soon be sharing more about this book, but moving has limited my reading time.)
Learning Sabbath rest and choosing rest during the remainder of my weekdays, both have been incorporated into my life. Sunday’s have grown to be day’s focused on resting in the One who is in control. Days of worship, reading, naps, simple meals of soups and/or salads, movies, and just together-time with loved ones. I look forward to Sundays, knowing the quiet peacefulness that flows from having a plan of rest in place.
Practicing Sabbath rest has helped me choose rest throughout the other days of the week as well. Stopping in my day, to sit, to read a portion of a book, to play with my bunnies or watch them and their silly shenanigans, to take a nap when I feel tired, or to sit down to write in my journal. Each one of these have become part of choosing rest in my days.
Living in simplicity began with the chore of decluttering the house and flowed into decluttering my calendar, my life, my mind, and my heart. Getting ready to move made decluttering the house a must, and it has been the best thing for me. I never realized the difference the quietness of clear counters and open spaces could make in my heart and soul. And, as I said, it started with outward changes, but I have internalized the desire for simplicity and seek it now without thinking about it too much. I look at life differently in deciding what is important and what really matters. And I am loving it.
Yet, I still stumble back into my old ways. I think the real difference is that I now notice my stumbling, I recognize the direction I am headed in, and I turn back to choose my practices of life recalibration. These practices have now become a part of me and that was the goal all along. The Lord has taught TV me more about His love throughout this year. Coming to know more of His love has been a by-product of the practices I learned. It is in His love that my soul is refreshed and I feel compelled to reach for that love.
The Lord’s love has made it safe to stop, to breathe, and to move forward differently. I have found the Refuge I needed to help me stop running. He has been here all along, but in my hurry to escape the inner emptiness I missed recognizing the safety of knowing Him deeper and being held in His amazing love. So, to Him be all the glory, for He has been patient and kind with me, helping me each step of the way. He is the Shepherd-Guide I am seeking to cling to each day, moment-by-moment.
Recalibrating life in 2019 has been a life-journey I will always reflect back on. I learned so much, and I know I will continue to return to the books, notes nd journal entries I made as I was reading and learning.
How has your 2019 word of the year made a difference in your life? What changes have you made, or how have you grown in 2019? Please share in the comments below.
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